Feeling a fall sort of way

Will I ever have someone that I will be able to rely on enough to share my fears with out immediate remorse?  I doubt it.  I'm the type of person who enjoys being alone but still gets lonely.  But when there is someone there I get tired of their company because I feel as though I cannot be me after they begin to judge me.  Who needs all that?  I'd rather hang out by myself in my judgement free drama free world.  But the downside of avoiding human interaction is that I also don't get to enjoy the good things like love and compassion.  I'm just not ready.

Maybe someone will come along one day and say this to me and I will know that they do understand.

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you